I live because of It

Standing in the front of it, The Mirror,

I saw my smile, have seen it many times though,

But why, this time, It wasn't like the day before,

It wasn't like any day before,

It wasn't like the first day of college,

It wasn't like the last day either,

It wasn't like my 16th birthday,

Nor it was like my 21st,

I was standing, trying to hold it,

To never to loose it,

Trying my best to learn to replicate it,

But At that very moment,

I loose control of it, I forgot it,

Like i never had it,

Like i never, Felt it,

I tried, tried so hard to get it back,

Tried to make me feel the same,

I was, just 5 minutes back,

I felt it wasn't  just the smile i lost,

I felt i lost it all, 

In seconds,all what i have became all what i had,

At the same moment i took a look,

Into my eyes,

Dull they looked, Shallow they looked,

But, that was just a look,

Deep there i saw it, and i saw it all,

It wasn't hiding from me,

My smile, The smile, 

I realized, It was so, so mine,

And it was just the matter of time,

I looked for it, in the eyes, in the smile 

of everyone, of all my love ones,

I felt like i found it, many times,

a lot of times,

But now i realized, 

That was just a feeling,

Rather was just a fear,

But now that i have it,

I feel it,

I Live because of it,

I Love because of it,

I am & I will be Smiling just because of it.

Where i Was???

I was moving,with the day & with the night,
I was thinking,about the world & about the world,
I woke up this morning & something pulled me back,
It wasn't sleep,it wasn't the world outside,
It was me!!!
Though for long i waited for it,but finally there was something called as Me inside me
Still Alive!!!
Still want to me look,
Look what i have missed,while my eyes open & my heart closed through all these years.
Last time when i looked, i remember,
I was different,
I don't know about the world,but definitely what my eyes saw was a way different,
Where i was?? is the one big question i left unanswered from all these years,
And now,at this moment,when i want to get Me back,
And,my eyes looked out, Out of the window,
And i realized,I have lost!!
Guess the Me outside is stronger than the Me inside,
And here i am,
Moving,with the day & with the night,
Thinking, about the world & about the world.